Restless, dissatisfied, melancholy, tired…
All words that describe me today.
Some days I just run out of pithy remarks and/or socially provocative platforms to post here.
Today, all I can feel is an intense aching for an adventure. My life, most of it anyhow, feels rather boring. I couldn’t be happier with my marriage relationship, but other than that, I’m a bit jaded. Cynical. Used-up. Over it.
Fork me, I’m done.
I think a lot about movies when I feel this way. It’s not even so much that I “think” about them as much as I “feel” them — I feel pieces of the adventures I’ve seen on the silver screen, surround-sounded and larger than life (at least, larger than my life). I feel the gravity of knowing that nothing I’m doing would even register on a moderate “excitement” scale. I feel left out, left with the short end of the stick… a short straw with shorter patience.
I feel like I’ve been shortchanged, just a bit, because nobody’s sending me chasing around the world to solve problems like Dr. Robert Langdon, Indiana Jones, or James Bond. I’m bummed that I haven’t yet seen the Coliseum, or the Pyramids, or London, or the Great Wall, or the Sydney Opera House. I’m tired of being/feeling poor (nobody in movies ever worries about money, you know). I’m just a little upset that I don’t know kung fu or any other method of hand-to-hand combat with which I might use to defend myself against a terrorist bent on world domination. In general, I’m pretty frustrated that I’ve never been off the North American continent.
Guess I need to go have me a Bond marathon after work (Allison’s gonna love it)…
Josh…I just wanted to mention that this is right where I was this past summer. I felt like everyone around me had these incredible things to share while I was left to the samo-samo. I was bored as well. I craved change. I craved some importance. I wanted to be a part of something that inspired others …leading the pack.
Since then, I’m learning to seek out adventure and take some risks. It has provided the needed “change” in my life. I’m also trying not to compare where I am with where others are because I know my season of adventure will come back around soon. The less “routine” the better!
Be encouraged, man. Go look for those adventures and dive in (because they won’t come to you!) Then come here and tell us all about them. Hope you enjoy Bond:)